• cuchilloc@vlemmy.netEnglish
    38·
    1 year ago

    One game I do not even know the title of. My brother used to play it when I was 6 years old. I remember the game being monochrome, not sure about the crt itself. But it was a kind of XCOM if I’d have to describe it, about some crew that lands on an underwater planet. It’s still my white whale coz I still have not found even the name . I tried chatgpting suggestions recently to no avail.

  • Zefrem23@lemmy.dbzer0.comEnglish
    373·
    1 year ago

    It’s not a white whale, it’s a Holy Grail. The white whale is something that occupies your every waking moment and you wish to eliminate so you can get on with your life.

      • intensely_human@lemm.eeEnglish
        5·
        1 year ago

        Put in the apartment application tonight. My credit’s better than it’s ever been, I have more cash on hand than I’ve ever had before, I even have money to pay movers this time. I don’t want to jinx it so I’m gonna expect obstacles still, but it’s looking good.

      • intensely_human@lemm.eeEnglish
        2·
        1 year ago

        AND I got approved. Holy shit I’m so excited.

        You have no idea how dead one’s dating life becomes when they are 40 and have no place of their own. But mostly I’m looking forward to whatever untold levels of mental health await me when I get alone time every day, and don’t have to worry about the rent.

        I’ve had apartments before … and I was always late on the rent.

        I had a really high-paying job once … but I was moving from couch to couch because it was so high stress I couldn’t navigate finding a place, and I lived paycheck to paycheck, and that went on a year and a half and then they fired me. I might have been able to make it if I’d had an apartment, could truly rest each night.

        Now, it’s all coming together:

        The apartment
        The job
        AT THE SAME TIME

        Holy shit I have never been stable in my entire life.

        For my mother money was chaos. She worked for herself. It was boom and bust. We’d splurge. We’d scrape. We’d go without when money didn’t come in. She saved nothing. Ever. My grandfather died and the family decided to sell his land to a suburb developer. She got $35k. The money was gone in a flash, as was my grandfather’s beautiful land.

        My model of success in life was “be brilliant, get discovered, rocket to the stars”. I saw the world as chutes and ladders: lucky breaks catapulting me into new social strata. I went to a fancy college, took out loans.

        After I got out I quit my first full time job. Too boring. Moved into a techie frat house. Started writing code. Worked freelance because I wanted to be free.

        My friends and peers got jobs. Took vacations. Had their evenings free. I was a businessman! with no boss! I was free!. But I was always broke. Occasionally I’d get a big contract.

        But I didn’t follow through. I cut corners. I smoked weed like a chimney, and procrastinated my work. I worked super short days. I’d go to a coffee shop, open the computer, code for an hour, decide “eh I’ll get cracking tomorrow” and then I’d leave.

        I constantly drank coffee, thinking it would motivate me. I had no idea that anxiety was a bigger problem than any “lack of motivation” I had. So I’d sit there and drink coffee and eat simple carbs and get into a miserable state.

        But I was that glitzy, glamorous figure: the dude with the computer making bank in hourly. I kept cranking my rates up.

        My zen teacher said to me, repeatedly, “I think a good move for you would be to just get a full time job”. I ignored his advice.

        Then in 2017 I got my hands on some acid, and microdosed for a while. I suddenly realized: all my financial problems come from the irregularity of my income. The acid blew my mind with a new realization: I’m getting old and this working-for-myself shit isn’t working. (Thanks LSD!)

        Anyway, it’s been a long hard road and I now make almost nothing compared to when I made senior software dev money, yet my finances are healthier.

        I could go on and on. Thank you for your encouragement!

  • zos_kia@lemmy.fmhy.mlEnglish
    17·
    1 year ago

    Kind of shameful but there is this one porn movie I used to have on a CDR that got lost between apartments. It’s stupid cause it’s #17 of a 20+ series and you can find #16 and #18 in like 2 minutes, but this one has disappeared from the face of the internet. The studio stopped listing it some time ago then they were bought out and the new owners never listed that one. Believe it or not I literally sent an email to the male star of the movie, but he never responded. There goes my holy grail. It must have gone out of stock and maybe the masters got lost or something. I know one rip was made at some point cause I found a filename in a listing, but it is long lost. Farewell lost porn 🙋‍♂️ farewell…

    • QuikxSpec@lemmy.worldOPEnglish
      3·
      1 year ago

      No shame dude! Maybe write the production company if they’re still around. Feel free to share the name or an embedded link to an info page. Never know if someone can help.

      • zos_kia@lemmy.fmhy.mlEnglish
        3·
        1 year ago

        Actually i found a phone number to the new studio so i might just give them a ring and ask about !

        It’s a French series called “Sacrées Coquines”, volume 17 :D i doubt anybody’s heard of it

  • timeisart@lemmy.worldEnglish
    151·
    1 year ago

    A complete collection of The Late Late Show with Craig Ferguson, including the first few years that nobody thought to record. The LLS Archive channel on YouTube is the most comprehensive source available but there’s still huge gaps of missing episodes. Rumor has it there’s one guy out there who recorded every episode on VHS but is refusing to digitize them.

  • Mit@reddthat.comEnglish
    141·
    1 year ago

    A remix version of Dragostea Din Tei, aka the Numa Numa, where the artist faded in part of the song a couple of times in a really interesting manner. I found it on limewire back in the mid 2000s and lost it in a reformat. Haven’t found it since.

      • Mit@reddthat.comEnglish
        1·
        1 year ago

        I just listened to both and it wasn’t either of them sadly. This one faded in the “Vrei sa pleci dar nu mă, nu mă iei” on repeat, starting at a volume so low that you question whether or not you actually hear it the first time and it gets louder with each repeat. I feel like it repeats 4 or 5 times before the song continues.

  • Carpe_DM@lemmy.worldEnglish
    13·
    1 year ago

    Insomniac with Dave Atell. I loved that show on Comedy Central, but it was never put on dvd that I could find. I’ve never found a good torrent of it either.

    Damn, I miss that show.

  • iMeddles@infosec.pubEnglish
    12·
    1 year ago

    Fun School 6: Futureland. Its a shitty edutainment game from the 90s that I played non-stop for like a year, that I want to get my hands on for nostalgia purposes. As far as I can tell its not available (online or physical media) anywhere. I finally found a copy for sale a few years ago, but it turned out to be a mislabelled copy of fun school 6: fairyland.

    I will keep searching, eventually a copy will show up somewhere!

  • Eidolon@lemmy.worldEnglish
    11·
    1 year ago

    I recently had the pleasure to slay it actually. It was the kinda like Twilight Zone but Horror ‘Night Gallery’ from 1996. It did exist, but the torrent that was circulating was messed up beyond belief. Episodes cut off at 20 minutes etc. Some dude on a private tracker ripped the whole thing anew for me.

  • lichtmetzger@feddit.deEnglish
    11·
    1 year ago

    A good quality version of the “VR.5” tv series from 1995. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/VR.5

    It’s a TV show about virtual reality and has peak 90’s aesthetic. They shot the scenes in "virtual reality"on black and white film and colorized them manually afterwards to create a very distinct and vibrant look. That must’ve been so much hard work.

    Sadly, there is only a 240p VHS rip with extremely terrible quality out there. I’ve always wanted to watch the whole thing, but it’s too degraded to enjoy like this.

  • alynnetjes@lemmy.worldEnglish
    11·
    1 year ago

    I actually went and bought my white whale and ripped it myself eventually. It’s a silly movie called DEBS but every version I could find had an error in the final scene. So I ripped it from DVD, if only now I could figure out how to self host it.

    On a related note, the first white whale I ever had is how I got into piracy, it was a kids show called ik mik loreland that we got to see in school as to learn spelling. They never showed us the entire series, and I had been obsessed with it for years untill on the news they talked about birate-pay. Eventually found a tracker on tickass-korrents. It took me 6 months to complete from what I assume was one seeder who didn’t use a PC ever. Recently register it myself and am proud to say it now has 4 dedicated seeders.

    • QuikxSpec@lemmy.worldOPEnglish
      6·
      1 year ago

      Wow haven’t heard that name in a while. Chock full of 2000s B-actresses. Glad you could find it! Campy movies are sooo good.

      And what a story of the other series. Congrats and great to pay it forward.

  • Musclewizard@lemmy.worldEnglish
    111·
    1 year ago

    A cracked version of Hatch. It’s embroidery software that my GF has wanted to use for her hobby / tiny side hustle but a license costs literally hundreds of dollars.

  • RighteousFog@lemmy.dbzer0.comEnglish
    10·
    1 year ago

    • A rip of this specific limited edition CD, that contains a few bonus tracks that can’t be found anywhere else in CD quality.

    • A PDF of the short-lived Japanese edition of GURPS 4th Edition (specifically Characters and Magic). The books are very hard to find, and usually cost $300-500 when sold online. It seems like no scans were ever made.